I’m a Homemaker :)

Not many people know, but actually I had been busy trying to get a part time job in the last few months.. The main reason was of course to get more income, but I also thought “hmm.. maybe I need to do something else outside of my home..” 🤔

My husband didn’t mind with that idea.. I also got phone calls from some of them.. But I always prayed: if it’s God’s will, please open the door.. but if it’s not, please close the door.. And I think you know what happened next.. Yes, God answered my prayer! And He closed all the doors! Hahaha.. 😂

One of them actually already told me to start working at their place and I already got everything ready for that.. but suddenly they didn’t contact me anymore.. and when I asked them, they said sorry, they rejected my application.. wow.. but honestly, I felt so happy and relieved when I got that message, because I know that it’s God’s will for me :)

So after that, after I received so many signs from God (haha..) I totally stopped looking for jobs.. I want to trust God with our financial.. I know that God (and my husband) are our providers.. and I want to learn to be content with my role right now, as a Homemaker :)

God wants me to focus on my calling and my role to be at home.. and I don’t need to find something else to do outside of my home to make me feel more or to make me feel better.. ♥️

What is homemaker?

A homemaker is someone who spends a lot of time looking after their home and family. You usually use homemaker to refer to someone who does not have a job outside the home.

A person who spends their time looking after a home and doing housework rather than being employed outside the home (typically applied to a woman).

And you can search more about it on Google, haha.. Similar with a “housewife” or a “stay at home mom”.. and yes, that’s my job right now 😁

Thank You, God for closing the doors and for showing me your will.. I’m thankful for this special calling in my life.. I want to enjoy it, I want to do my best, I want to upgrade myself everyday, I want to open my heart to learn new things and new skills (even I don’t get paid for doing this, haha..) I want to be a Homemaker for the glory of God! 🙏🏻

God’s Will or My Will?

“I want to travel all over the world and become a full time missionary!”

Yes, that’s my dream when I was young. I love traveling. I love serving God in a mission field. I also met my husband in a mission trip. Everything seems goes in line with my dream.

Now I’m 37, I become a stay at home mom and homeschool mom of 3 boys. Despite all the challenges, I love being a mom. But honestly sometimes there is a question in my heart, “Why am I here, Lord? Why my life now is so different?”

Changing nappies, nursing and feeding the kids, juggling with so many house chores, dealing with kids tantrums or fights, doing the same things and same activities day after day.. I thought I’d be like those missionaries who travel to so many places and serve many people.. Why, Lord? Why?

God finally answered my question in a very unique way. He spoke to me through someone’s posting in social media. This lady also has the same experience and she used to ask God the same questions. Through her posting, God really spoke to me:

“Is it your will or My will?”

“Is it your dream or My dream?”

Wow! That really made me thinking and also crying. I didn’t realise that this is what God wants me to do, this is His dream and His calling for my life: to do His mission work in my home. He wants me to follow His will and His plan, not mine. He wants me to be faithful in this ministry called motherhood. He wants me to learn to be faithful in small things every single day and to do all the unseen things with all my heart. He wants me to do everything as doing it for the Lord!

No matter where we are right now, whether we are in a mission field or in a working place or even at home, we can still serve God! Don’t be discouraged and disappointed when we don’t get the life that we expected.. but let’s follow God’s will, God’s plan and God’s dream for us, and live it to the fullest!

Now I’m grateful and thankful for God’s special calling for my life, to be a wife to an amazing husband and also to be a mother to my 3 wonderful boys. Now I believe that God’s will is always better than my will.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah‬ ‭29‬:‭11‬

My Life as a Homeschool Mom of 3

Hello everyone, I’m back! 😄 Since 2021 until now, I tried to reduce my social media time so I can get less distractions and focus more on my daily life because honestly being a homeschool mom of 3 is very BUSY! Haha.. Glenn is 7 yo now, Joel is 4 yo and Levi is 18 months..

Being a homeschool mom is actually not easy and I realised that I can’t do this by myself.. I need help and I need support.. First of course from God (because He is the One that called me to do this) but I also need help and support from other people.. Next is from my husband.. thankful because he is a good cook so he can help me in that area and now we also do 1 of the homeschooling days on weekends (either Saturdays/Sundays) when my husband is home, so he can help out on that day :)

Another big help is.. since last month, we started to send Glenn & Joel to a daycare once a week.. They used to attend this daycare (that ran by an Indonesian lady) when I was sick during my pregnancy with Levi, so they already know her very well.. So at least every once a week, I can have a bit of break (and the kids also can have a break from me, haha..) I can spend more time with Levi, have time to finish all the unfinished chores and hopefully I also can have more time to do the things that I love (writing a blog is one of them!) So I think it’s been a good decision to send them to daycare.. good for my mental health as well :)

So yes.. it’s very important for us to ask for help.. we can’t do this life alone.. there is no wonder women or super moms.. so don’t feel bad to reach out for help and to think about ourselves (moms need a break and to be recharged too!)

And when you read this post, please also keep me in your prayers.. I need help and I need support from you all to be a Godly homeschool mom for my 3 boys.. There are so many ups and downs.. I’ve failed many times and done so many mistakes.. There are times when I feel like I want to give up, I want to find a job and just send all of them to school.. and I have experienced all other homeschool mom’s guilts and problems, haha.. It’s not easy.. But I know this is God’s calling for me and I know He will enable me to do this.. Amen! 🙏🏻♥️

(Our last family photo by AW in March 2023)