Soon To Be (Godly) Wife

hug you in my prayer.... keep smiling  bentar lagi jd istri orang *uhuk-uhuk*

(message from Lia Stoltzfus 27/8/2013)

Hahaha... iya nih, gak nyangka bentar lagi bakal jadi istri orang... padahal kemaren-kemaren kayaknya masih single, masih doain soal pasangan hidup, gak pernah kebayang kapan bakal married and sama siapa... ternyata sekarang udah di depan mata, wkwkwk... But hidup itu seru ya, ada stage and season yang berbeda yang harus kita lewatin... and I wanna enjoy it! Dari masih single, trus masuk in a relationship, persiapan jadi istri, married, punya anak-cucu, sampe jadi nenek-nenek and then dipanggil Tuhan nanti... I wanna let my life be like an open book, so others may see God and they can be blessed + inspired through my journey of life :)

Sekarang ini aku lagi ada di stage di mana aku bisa bilang, "Oh... begini toh rasanya punya pasangan (punya cowoq tepatnya)", "Oh... gini yah rasanya LDR", "Oh... ternyata begini yang namanya persiapan wedding", "Oh... gini rasanya kalo udah mo jadi istri orang" wkwkwk... :p And sekarang aku jadi bisa ngerti kalo ada orang yang share/curhat tentang pasangan mereka, couples yang lagi in LDR, or ngeliat para ceweq yang pusing gara-gara urusan wedding, dsb. Wow... now I know how it feels (dulu pas masih jomblo gak pernah ngerasain soalnya, hehe...)

And maybe I can say buat kalian yang juga lagi ada di stage ini, I think this is the right time for us to prepare ourselves to be a Godly wife :) Ini bener-bener time for preparation... and time for God to shape us! haha... Aku ngerasain banget soalnya, selama hampir 10 bulan jadian sama DM, oh man... banyak up and down nya... seorang Cella ini kayak lagi "dihancurin" sama Tuhan buat disiapin jadi seorang Godly wife... Ada saatnya aku bandel (sering malah :p) and punya respon yang jelek banget... Aku sering gagal, and kadang heran sama diri aku sendiri... Seorang Cella yang biasanya kuat, bisa dewasa and calm hadepin orang... eh, pas berhadapan sama DM, sifat childish-nya keluar semua, haha... bisa sebel and nangis bahkan cuma gara-gara hal sepele... Kalo lagi PMS apalagi, si DM yang paling sering jadi sasaran sensi tuh kayaknya, wkwkwk... *peace* :p Sampe satu kali, si DM pernah bilang ke aku: "Ternyata bener-bener yah... woman is complicated..." hahaha... baru tau dia... (don't try to understand woman, hihi...) Bahkan aku juga pernah keluarin kata-kata yang tanpa sadar, it made him feel hurt (kalo orang stabil kayak dia feel hurt, itu udah luar biasa berarti, haha...)

But aku inget ci Lia sering bilang, setiap kita pasti pernah gagal, yang penting terus punya hati yang mau dibentuk dan diajar... And aku juga bersyukur, aku punya Tuhan plus punya DM yang panjang sabar... easy to forgive, easy to forget, and always give me a second chance (itulah salah satu keuntungan punya pasangan orang stabil, hihi...) They open their hearts for my failures and mistakes... and justru itu yang bikin aku mau terus berubah and berubah to become a better woman :)

On the other hands, aku bersyukur sih semua proses ini bisa kita lewatin sebelum kita married... Justru lebih bagus malah, daripada hubungan adem-ayem aja, jadi kayak malaikat semua, trus pas married baru SURPRISE! Ini lho sifat asli gue... *pingsan deh* haha... Lewat semua ini, we get to know each other better... and aku juga jadi bisa mulai belajar dari sekarang to be a Godly spouse for him... I learn to be someone who love him unconditionally, learn to be his biggest supporter (especially through prayer), learn to appreciate him and be proud of him, learn to focus more on what he needs and what he likes, learn to not blame/complain about him, learn to be a cheerful and happy spouse (haha...) and of course, learn to be the woman who always lives in the fear of God... I wanna be a blessing for DM :)

He who finds a wife finds what is good

    and receives favor from the Lord.

- Proverbs 18:22, NIV

A good woman is hard to find,

    and worth far more than diamonds.

Her husband trusts her without reserve,

    and never has reason to regret it.

Never spiteful, she treats him generously

    all her life long.

- Proverbs 31:10-12, MSG

Aku rindu supaya pas kita married nanti, on our wedding day... DM bisa bilang kalo dia udah mendapatkan sesuatu yang baik... favor from the Lord :) bukan sesuatu yang nyebelin, rese, nyusahain, banyak bikin masalah and bikin pusing, hahaha... I also want him to get a "diamond" --> wife that can bring a blessing and prosperity into his life... bukan malah dapet "burung beo" yang kerjaannya tiap hari ngoceh-ngoceh (u musti begini dong! u musti begitu dong! wkwkwk...) poor DM kalo aku jadi istri yang kayak begitu :p I have waited for him for a long time (udah 26 taon nunggu kehadiran dia) and I don't wanna waste him... I want to appreciate him as my soon to be (Godly) husband :)

I wanna let God to shape me to become more beautiful day by day and be prepared to be your bride and help meet, DM... I *smurf* you! (belom boleh ucapin love words soalnya, wkwkwk... :p)

It's easy for a man to find a woman with which to have fun for a short period of time. But there is only one woman in his life that is good for him over the long run, and that is a Godly wife.

- Robb Thompson