Keep Smiling, Cella! :)

Itu satu kalimat yang diucapin DM berkali-kali selama kita lagi telponan kemaren :)

Bagi yang udah married, pasti ngerti lah ya gimana rasanya selama wedding preparation.. apalagi kalo pasangan kita gak ada sama-sama kita.. jadi sering banyak misscom.. bukan cuma sama DM, but sama para parents and family juga.. Padahal yang buat di Indo ini nanti cuma acara engagement, tapi jauh lebih ribet urusannya dibanding acara wedding kita yang di Aussie nanti.. Itulah bedanya budaya Asia and budaya barat, haha..

Akhirnya kemaren kita doa bareng di telepon and DM encourage aku terus.. "Keep smiling, Cella.. Keep smiling.." and honestly, it was so hard for me to smile at that time.. Bahkan sampe tadi pagi aku juga masih bangun dalam keadaan yang gak happy.. spirit of complaining nya jauh lebih kuat daripada spirit of thanksgiving, haha.. gara-gara urusan wedding, akhirnya hal-hal yang laen juga jadi keikut di-complain juga deh :p

But thanks God, pas banget hari ini aku seharian ikut pelayanan bareng tim misi YWAM (outreach) ke satu slum area.. It was so awesome! But ada satu kejadian yang bikin aku langsung bertobat sih.. tepatnya pas aku lagi di dalem busway.. tiba-tiba aku liat satu ibu yang duduk di depan aku.. and when I looked at her face, you know what.. I was super shocked!! Maybe I can say, mukanya bener-bener aneh and serem.. Kalo gak salah liat (karena aku juga gak berani ngeliatin dia terus :p), kayaknya dia tuh punya 3 mata! Soalnya ada 1 bolongan lagi gitu di pipinya.. Trus mulutnya.. hard to describe deh.. kayak ketarik ke atas gitu.. Aku sampe bilang ke bule YWAM yang lagi aku dampingin saat itu: "OMG! I just saw a lady who has 3 eyes!!" dan dia jadi ikutan shocked juga, haha.. Tadinya pengen kita samperin and doain pas turun dari busway, but udah gak kekejar..

Anyway, after I saw that lady, aku langsung bener-bener bertobat.. udah gak perlu tanya apa maksud Tuhan lagi deh, wkwkwk.. I know that I have to stop complaining and be grateful with my life! Aku harus bisa bersyukur karena aku punya muka and mata yang normal.. and the most important thing, aku punya bibir/mulut yang normal to smile! Jangan sampe mulut kita ditarik Tuhan ke atas gara-gara kita gak mo senyum, haha.. jadi serem ngebayanginnya.. but thanks God for reminding me, through that lady.. God can speak to us through so many ways :)

So, now I can smile again! Hehe.. And during this wedding preparation time, aku mau belajar untuk punya hati yang lemah lembut and siap dibentuk.. Forgive me O Lord, kalo aku sering gagal.. but I really want to please You, God with my life.. Also thanks for my fiance, DM, for his encouragement all the time, especially during the bad times.. though you are not here, but your support means a lot :) I pray so that our relationship and our marriage (bahkan selama masa preparation) can be a blessing, an example and inspiration for others.. bukan cuma saat kita happy doang, but masa-masa waktu kita struggle, waktu gagal, waktu kita konflik dan lain sebagainya.. but then we choose to follow God's way, to keep loving and forgiving one another.. it can be a great testimony :) Keep smiling!!

Wedding preparation can be stressful sometimes, but I don't wanna let the devil steal the joy & peace from my heart. Wedding is not about what kind of dress or jewelry that I'm going to wear, but it's about a heart that ready and willing to be shaped by God.. :')

Thanks Arlia for sending me this quote :)